There is a stretch of road between Winamac and Rensselear that seems to be perfect for reflecting. My thoughts grow stronger in this almost hour it takes to get from one to the other.
Things have been busy lately but my thoughts were to the point of consuming me so I had to write them down when I finally got a chance and this is what was given to me:
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I may not know what's next because I'm not in a place of strength in my relationship with Jesus to handle what's next.
I'm so anxious - my flesh is - that it is distracting from building that relationship. If I can't truly rest and keep my flesh at reach then I may not be able to handle the next step - which may be hard to endure.
If I can't trust now when things are OK, but psychologically disheartening, then how will I trust (i.e. - be at peace with the situation, not just know it'll be fine - worry sabotages faith and true trust) when it really does get tough?
The mind must be beat into submission and the peace must prevail. The next step will be great - the distractions and attacks get greater the closer you move to glory in what's been approved for us.
This must be fought hard and the fight leaves us weary ---> lack of self strength gives God the chance to come into us and give us His strength - an ounce of which is greater than anything we can be by ourselves. It is a good place to be.
Fight against the shame of the past - fight against the memories of what could have been because it wasn't what we were to do anyway. Fight, Fight, Fight regrets and doubt. Fight without reserve.
Move into worship at all times - rest and shelter are found in the shadow of God - more than a conqueror.
What is to come is great, but, trust. Beat the mind down when doubt comes. Remember what bought you all those years ago and remember the power I walked in. It's the same fight, just stronger because the stakes are greater this time. God's peace shall conqueror and no matter what is brought up by Satan to distract and steal joy and peace. Fight and win - know Jesus with abandon and walk in that power.
The best is yet to come.
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Enjoy the weekend, I must go tend to the laundry and get going.
Chao!!!
La. Sra.
